~dragonblossoms

"Within."

x.Love.x

Journal Entry: Sun May 18, 2008, 6:23 AM

Mood: Yearning
Listening to: x.Moulin Rouge.x
Reading: x.Love in a Time of Cholera.x
Watching: x.The Notebook.x

_{I couldn't stop thinking about you
As I wrote my English exam.

My concentration just kept pulling away
Into thoughts of you.

You.

Sweetheart.

I love you.

No longer a high school student. <3
I've got four months until I move into residence.

I quit my last job because I couldn't do it and exams at the same time. And I was kind of starting to hate it. So I'm looking for a new one.

"It's not the moonlight that sets me off,
It's not the money that makes me scoff.
It's my impeccable disorder
Where I keep on falling for her."

:Tokyo Police Club:

I'm really bored.

I thought I would enjoy not being a high school student anymore. And the university-style exams were murderous. I was so exhausted. But now I just want something to do.

Doing artwork and stuff. Just sketches, mostly. Writing an essay for Jace. He needs to give me a more specific topic, though, so I can focus it more.

Anyway. Uhmmm... go read Love in a Time of Cholera, yes? Better than the movie, but it was also v. good.

Incredible.

Garcia Marquez has a really strange writing style. He doesn't mince words, and he doesn't avoid subjects that are taboo in our culture. Faces them head-on, but does so in a poetic way.

I can't write anymore.

Since you've been away? Yeah. The words are clogged up inside of me, and I lack the ability to even whisper them. They all feel superficial and meaningless without you.

The essay's going well, though. I keep revising it and tearing it to pieces, because I want it to be perfect. I'm just writing about your role as a literary character at the moment and how you counterpoint my own search for identity.

x...x

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more

Listen to my heart
Can you hear it sing?
Telling me to give you
Everything
Seasons may change
Winter to spring

But I love you.
Until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may

I will love you
Until my dying day.

Suddenly the world seems
Such a perfect place
Suddenly moves with
Such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't
Seem such a waste
And it all revolves around you.

Come what may..."

x.Moulin Rouge.x

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Fear Quiz!

PHOBIA QUIZ! LET EVERYONE KNOW WHAT YOU FEAR.

x.Jae.x

x = Somewhat
xx = Greater
XXX+ = Super scared of whatever Phobia it is.

A
[] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness. (Mm. I like the dark. It's so peaceful. )
[] Acrophobia - Fear of heights. ( <3 )
[x] Agliophobia - Fear of pain. (I certainly don't enjoy it. .O.)
[XXX++] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds. (I love open spaces. But crowds? Christ! DX )
[xx] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects. (Hospital stuff in general bothers me.)
[] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car. (Nope.)
[] Androphobia - Fear of men. (Heh.)
[x] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking. (I...guess?)
[] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers. ( .O.)
[XXX+++!!!!!!!!] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society. (...)
[] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched. (I love contact with other people.)
[] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders. ( They don't bother me. )
[] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers. (I like them. They just don't like me.)
[] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightning. ( Makes me feel secure. <3)
[x] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness. (This is starting to bother me. Thaaaaaaanks, Jace. <3 )
[] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection. (Nothing is perfect. Nothing.)
[] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure. (Meh.)
[xx] Autophobia - Fear of being alone. (Sometimes it seems really scary. Other times it's the only thing I want.)
B
[] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria. (Neh.)
[] Barophobia - Fear of gravity. (Curse you, gravity!)
[] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes. (I've never even seen most of these terms.)
[] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians. (Mm?)
[] Bibliophobia - Fear of books (BOOKS = FTW <333333)
[] Botanophobia - Fear of plants. (Plants are nice.)
C
[] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness. (.O.)
[x] Catagelophobia - Fear of being embarassed publicly. (Again, I don't think I'd really enjoy it.)
[] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors. (Mirrors can be fun. Sometimes.)
[] Chionophobia - Fear of snow. (I love the snow.)
[] Chromophobia - Fear of colors. (....)
[] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks. (What...the...fuck... )
[x] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces. (Yeah, I guess.)
[x] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns. (Most of them are freaky.)
[] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers (....okay.)
[] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs. (Nah.)
D
[] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees. (Who's afraid of trees? .O. )
[xx] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists. (Too much like doctors for my liking.)
[] Domatophobia - Fear of houses. (Mm.)
[x] Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents. (Accidents suck. But they're generally not that big of a deal.)
E
[] Ecophobia - Fear of the home. (I'm not getting the point of this quiz.)
[] Elurophobia - Fear of cats. (Kitteh. <3)
[] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers. (I'm horrified, I'm sure.)
[] Equinophobia - Fear of horses. (Naah.)
G
[] Gamophobia - Fear of marriage. (...?)
[] Genuphobia - Fear of knees. (Oh, God, not the knees!! Get them away!!)
[] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public. (Don't mind this.)
[] Gynophobia - Fear of women. (...)
H
[] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun. (No longer away from the sun.. )
[] Hemophobia - Fear of blood. ( Oddly enough...no. )
[] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles. ( Nah.)
[] Hydrophobia - Fear of water. (Water. <3)
I
[XXX!!!!] Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors. (Get. The. Fuck. Away. From. Me.)
[] Insectophobia - Fear of insects. (Most of them are pretty cool-looking.)
J
[XXX+!] Jaelaphobia - Fear of zombie goats. [8D Hah! FEEEAR ME.]
K
[] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms. (...what?)
L
[] Leukophobia - Fear of the color white. (Mm..?)
[] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes. (I love storms. 8D)
[] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth. (.O. No.)
M
[] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking. (I suppose there's the potential for burning the entire house down, but...)
[] Melanophobia - Fear of the color black. (Black <3)
[] Microphobia - Fear of small things. (?)
[] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs. (It's everywhere. May as well deal with it.)
[] Myrmecaphobia - Fear of ants. (They don't bother me, I don't bother them.)
N
[] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things. (It fascinates me.)
[] Noctiphobia - Fear of the night. (We own the night. 8D)
[XXX!!!!1!!!1!!!] Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals. (Ah, that's what this is called!)
O
[] Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight (Meh.)
[] Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8. (Ooookay.)
[] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain. (Rain is beautiful.)
[] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes (What? Afraid of cute little snakes?)
[] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds. (Nah. .O.)
P
[] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper. (Uhm...yeah. Terrified.)
[] Pathophobia - Fear of disease. ( Bah.)
[] Pedophobia - Fear of children. (Oh, God, they're everywhere!!! nyuuuuuuuu!)
[] Philophobia - Fear of love. ("Above all things I believe in love. Love is like oyygen. Love is a many splendored thing, love lifts us up where we belong, all you need is love.")
[] Phobophobia - Fear of being afraid. (But doesn't that just cause more fear?)
[] Podophobia - Fear of feet. (They can get kind of gross sometimes, I suppose.)
[] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple. (I cannot believe there's a word for this. I love the English language. I really do.)
[] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns. (Mmmkay.)
[] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying. (Fly me away, baby.)
[] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire. (Fiiiiiiiiiire! @w@)
S
[] Scolionophobia - Fear of school. (Nahhh.)
[] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon. (<3)
[x] Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation. (Yeah... to an extent.)
[] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep. (I need my sleep time.)
T
[] Tachophobia - Fear of speed. (Speeeeeeed! >D )
[] Technophobia - Fear of technology. (*huggles laptop*)
[] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder. (Thunder is also beautiful.)
[XXX+] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections. ( o_o'
V-Z
[] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women. ( I like beautiful women. <3 God. I sound like a lesbian.)
[] Verminophobia - Fear of germs. (How many words are there for this??? I said no the first five times.)
[] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft. (Who cares?)
[] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers (Actually...this word is more commonly interpreted as “fear of foreigners.” )
[] Zoophobia - Fear of animals (Animaux! <3)

All we have to fear is fear itself, right?}

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~JasonChan

May 18, 2008, 9:18:18 AM

Congrats on not being a high school student anymore. : D
_{Are you ready to be a college student now? I know I'm not.
Where teachers don't take attendance
Or care if you have to pee or poo
They don't ask for your homework
You turn it in yourself
Homework is far and inbetween
But worth two semesters
God.
High school was just so easy}

Four months until moving into residency? As in, into a dorm or into your own place? What, what what?

Speaking of jobs...
I no longer work. I quit.
Due to transportation.
It's been two weeks
And I miss my income.
Although
I just had an interview today
For stupid
chicken
fast
food
But I'll be paid $7.25. And who can refuse that? Not I. Not I. That's more than my Sunday Premimum.

What places have you scouted out so far? I'm trying my best to apply to the county library. I say, if I have to 'suffer' (because I hate working for others), let me suffer in a sea of books. At least then if I have nothing to do during breaks I can look around.

I listen to moozak. Read. Doodle. Drawing is hard. Writing is hard. My thoughts are so jumbled with you. You're like my writing guide. My muse. This seperation is making inspiration hard.

I'm still thinking up an essay topic for you.
Ooh, ooh. How about...
How about the difference between being alive and actually living?

_{Watching this thing on TV about Charles Manson. @_@}

Love in A Time of Cholera?

Alright. :3

I'll look for it in the library the next time I go. So far I haven't gone because I owe them over $10 worth of late fees. >_>' I'll look in the bookstore too. I have some giftcards to use up. : D

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~VaelDragon

May 18, 2008, 10:50:06 AM

Yeah, life in a uni is very different to high school, or school overall XD I'm managing because I know the course I picked well enough, which is key to passing in uni

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~Reanimated-Theories

May 20, 2008, 10:02:04 AM

Exams? What kind of subjects? Eeek those sound veeery stressful.

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~dragonblossoms

May 24, 2008, 7:57:13 PM

_{They were our finals, so everything that we've done in the past two years. D:
Art, English Lit., Philosophy, Math Studies, History, Biology and French.

It was gross. xDD I think I did alright, though.

I'm glad it's over. Downside is I'm staying in Ontario for the summer with my Mom. But it's been alright so far. ^^}

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~Reanimated-Theories

May 24, 2008, 8:10:39 PM

Two years?! I find that unsual, usually its one year. lol

Your in college/university right? Sorry if I forgot. >.< I have trouble remembering if my friends are in high school or college because everyone seems so ridiculously smart for their age. lol

And you are? Cool, I live in Manitoba.

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~dragongirl1

May 29, 2008, 5:16:44 AM

do you find u miss school? i never thought i would but once i had left i just wanted to go back. but i will admit, i don't miss the exams, glas they are over for good!
Good luck with whatever you go on to do.
I'm looking forward to seeing all this artwork you can do in your spare time, as your awesome.